Message-ID: <40945asstr$1045689003@assm.asstr-mirror.org> X-Original-Message-ID: <20030219160914.74293.qmail@web40414.mail.yahoo.com> From: "A. Jones" X-ASSTR-Original-Date: Wed, 19 Feb 2003 08:09:14 -0800 (PST) Subject: {ASSM} Letter To A Friend About My Blood Fetishes - MF, heavy BDSM, DS, blood play, menstrual period fetish Date: Wed, 19 Feb 2003 16:10:03 -0500 Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail Approved: Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d X-Archived-At: X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation X-Story-Submission: X-Moderator-ID: newsman, dennyw __________________________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! Shopping - Send Flowers for Valentine's Day http://shopping.yahoo.com <1st attachment, "Letter To A Friend About My Blood Fetishes.txt" begin> Author: PlanetDweller Title: Letter To A Friend About My Blood Fetishes Summary: A somewhat boring narrative letter to a friend that outlines my philosphy of extreme BDSM and bloodwork, gives some examples, and explains why I enjoy blood and menstrual play. Keywords: MF, heavy BDSM, DS, blood play, edge work, menstrual period fetish Hi Mia, And hope you slept well, Smile. Thanks for breaking into chat with me last night, it's appreciated. My last words on the subject of Barnhill & Co., is that for me BBS'ing has always been about fun. I routinely get back into Boards and such because I missed the true intimacy, a kind of intimacy seldom if ever found in the non-vt world, and just as routinely leave the vt-world because of the inevitable politics encountered within any group of people, politics that always take the fun out being on the Boards for me. Enough on that subject. Regarding the other thing(s) we talked about, I would like to take a couple of moments of your time and tell you about my BDSM/DS interests, which you may or may not find interesting. Do I have a blood fetish? No, and yes. Regarding scalpel work and knife/edgeplay within the lifestyle. I do know as much about anatomy and physiology as many physician assistants/PA's. Not a full MD-level, but more than your average senior EMT. I was trained decades ago as a corpsman/field combat medic. So heavy "edgework" with my painslut/slave is without risks as much as practically possible when I'm doing them, and I keep a full crash kit handy just in case. Within BDSM play, it's not about the cutting, it's about the intimacy it brings. Cutting itself and blood from the cuts themselves actually do not turn me on, any more than doing minor surgery say, to remove am embedded fish hook from the hand of a fishing buddy that he accidentally screwed up and did to himself while we were out fishing for example, would. I have handled all sorts of real-world real-time wounds, from gunshots to stabbings to bad accident victims with multiple injuries to other things you don't want to think about, and I have never, repeat, never been turned on either by blood or injuries in cases like those. Obviously not. In those cases, I never panic (I never panic at all, there's never a point in doing so), I just handle the situation, professionally. Those cases were where my skills as a healer were needed. Heavy BDSM edgeplay, which also includes such things (in my personal Master's dictionary, Smile) as heavy beatings, brandings, flamework and other burnings, and even such silly things as heavy and strong two-fingered pinchings (I'm not kidding, my two-fingered pinchings can bring a grown man quickly to his knees), done with a willing and to an eager partner, are totally different. Am I a Master, or a sadist? The answer is, of course, both. Both are about intimacy, reaching a level of intimacy that usually isn't reached and most of the time isn't reachable in the vanilla world. Now, I do recognize that a similar level of intimacy can be and often is achieved in DS relationships, like you said last night, even when there is no sex and even little to no actual physical contact between Master and subbie. I do enjoy the submission of all partners, be they vanilla, subbie, slave, or total slavepainslut. All Masters do of course, or they wouldn't be Masters. Submission to scalpel and bloodplay is no different to submission to verbal directions from your Master, as long as those activities are what you enjoy! Now, Mia, if you have a sense about me at all, you know that, given my deep spirituality, you know that I could never do anything a slave didn't want me to do to her. Part B to that is, is that I am a true em-path. I hate the term "psychic" but yeah, my ability to connect with a partner is on that level. This is where and how I achieve pleasure for me, myself, Mia. During play with a partner, I feel exactly what she is feeling, because I establish a true and very real psychic link with her. I feel every single thing she feels, good and bad and indifferent. If she was not enjoying at the moment what I was doing, I would know that instantly and then go onto something different. I think most Master/slave relationships eventually evolve into something like this over time, this intuitive response level. But with me, I am actually inside my slave's head as well, seeing - hearing - smelling- tasting - feeling of touch exactly as what she's experiencing. Yes, it truly is beyond neat! This is why blood and edgeplay does not in and of itself turn me on, conversely nothing by itself (not much at least) either. It's just that for most true masochists who seldom in their years of looking can find someone like me who is nice, sweet, sincere, sane, experienced, and very knowledgable about edgework and heavy play, when they find me their feelings are and become so totally intense during our play that of course I feed off their happiness and joy and total pleasure using my empathetic link with them during our play. If they were getting as much enjoyment just sitting at an ice cream shop sharing a huge hot fudge sundae with me as they do during our bloodplay, then "I" would be getting as much enjoyment from sharing their joy from the sensuousness of partaking of that gooey hot fudge atop perfectly fine vanilla ice cream as we laugh and smile together and get sweet chocolate messes all over ourselves as I have and do with getting the same messes all over ourselves later during edgework-play. To me, Mia, it's about the love, it's about the sharing, it's about the happiness, it's about finding what you have been looking for. It is never about pain, it's always about pleasure. I couldn't one bit more actually "hurt" a play partner or any other living human being as I could myself, because I'm as linked to them as say a hard disk is to the computer's motherboard, data exchange being as pure and free between the two as possible. If I actually cause "real pain" to another, then I feel it as unfettered as they do, and guess what, Mia? You'll find this funny. I don't like pain, Smile! Now all of that said, I do have a slight blood fetish, but not a BDSM-driven one. For reasons that go back to early childhood experiences that I will happily tell you about another time if you express curiosity in hearing about them, I 'do' have a blood fetish, but it's not from BDSM, it's a menstrual blood fetish, which is totally different from what I've just talked about above. This morning I wrote an email to a ladyfriend whom shares my period/menstruation fetish (yes, a 26-year-old biological lesbian female who has a period fetish) whom I "perv with" from time to time, about a typical experience that I would have in a typical month with my soon-to-be-ex-slave/wife, a typical experience that is representative but not singular to the kinds of TPE (total power exchange) play we would have when we were in a happier time and place. It's immediately below. This will give you a good idea about how I incorporated my admitted-to menstruation fetish with what would be for us a fairly mild, i.e. no scalpels or needles and such, play session. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Good Morning, Suzy, And hope you slept well. I saw your most recent post on B's and am remembering our previous correspondence, and am sitting here just a' thinking a bit. The (soon-to-be) ex-wife used the new Kotex Overnights with Velcro ever since they came out. She's told me several times (she knows of my menstrual fetish, of course) that they had to have been designed by a woman, because the Velcro tabs create a very slight bulge in the pad which makes them form-fit the vaginal "depression" as they are worn which makes them more comfortable to wear than standard pads which, because of their flatness, don't prevent leaks as well and aren't as comfortable. The past two months, though, she's switched to the Always Maxis, mainly because as much as she like the K-O's these Always have extra length front-to-back that she likes, making the choice to have extra protection there as opposed to a bit more comfort. So, you're very horny just before and while on your period?Cool! Since you are in a stage now between heterosexuality and your emerging bisexuality-to- lesbianism, do you feel more feelings towards women than men? I would assume that if your encounter(s) with your Linda, you would especially lean towards her in particular and women in general. I would still like to hear the full story about Linda etc., you really do have my curiosity up, but I can wait until you have a little more energy and time for you to relate the story. Regarding the soon-to-be ex-wife, it's very very hard right now going through the last stages of our marriage in a sexless state while still living togeher and even sleeping in the same bed together still. We're still friends, just not married anylonger. Yes, especially right now when she too is on her period, and keep in mind that our whole marriage has been a 24/7 TPE (Total Power Exchange) BDSM one since Day One, it's sssoooo tempting even now to "reclaim" my rights as her (former, now) Master and just pull her panties to one side and begin a slow, slow "vanilla" fuck of her, her mild protestations aside. In our marriage, if you are not familiar with TPE, by her expressed wishes to me at the beginning of and continuing into our marriage, I not only have the right to but also the obligation to make 'all' decisions of a sexual nature for us both, that's why it's called "total power exchange", because she voluntarily surrendered and until we decided to divorce recently surrendered on a daily basis her power to me to do with her as I wished. And yes, for the past three years, it was heaven on earth, every man's and Master's fantasy come true. She also has enjoyed menstrual sex even in her prior "vanilla" (non-TPE) relationships, so you can imagine the creative things I've done over these past years. One thing she always enjoyed was, after a heavy "play session" where I'd spank her or tie her up and playfully use a whip or cane or even better a favorite riding crop on her backside, work her into a frenzy as she hunched naked on all fours on the bed before me, her bleeding pussy slowly dripping blood onto her pudenda and thighs, after working her ass to a nice cherry-red with hand or paddle or crop, to then fuck her hard as she knelt before, just going at it like an animal, covering myself in her menstrual blood, before flipping her around to have her suck my bloody cock and lick it clean before flipping her back around once again, fucking her bleeding cunt some more, and then shove my bloody cock up her ass (she loves assfucking even in "vanilla", BTW), using her own period blood as a lubricant, like she needed my cock to be lubricated at that point, she and I both having worked into a frenzy. And, always, pardon the pun, after I just let go and was a free man and Master fucking her asshole as hard as I could possibly fuck it for as long as I could last, covering both of us from navel to knees in her rougeish essence, after spending my spent inside her and collapsing onto the bed in a heap of twitching and shivering flesh from menstrual-blood fired passions spent, always in an act of loving selflessness and perfect slavehood and wifehood she'd dart off to the bathroom to get a warm wet soapy washcloth to clean me up, making a show of slowly working her red from me to the damp cloth as warm and inviting as her hemoragic pussy and receptive asshole had been moments earlier, then going to get another soft damp one to rinse me off with as I lay almost paralyzed from the oh-my-God-I-AM-the-luckiest-man-and-Master-alive experience just experienced before she then turned the page and began her short story of cleaning her own self off, her eyes meeting mine as she worked new clean washcloths across her crimson'd flesh, shoving a finger or two up her vagina before licking them lick an ice cream cone and returning to opening her legs as she stood at the side of the bed next to me and transferred her feminine essence from body to cloth in a "thank you, Dear, for being my perfect Master" theater of shadow and smoke rising from her slit. Damn, Suzy, you can see why I don't want this divorce from her. She is perfect for me, and we for each other. But sometimes, not just life but fate comes into a relationship, a perfect Master/slave marriage doomed to failure from Day One by the fates. God, I hate it, don't want it. Any woman/slave whose interest and passions match mine the a giant jigsaw puzzle meshed perfectly together, especially my/our blood and period interests, damn, what can I say, I can't, it's time to shut up for this morning. In any case, hope you were turned on by the above true telling of a period sex encounter I would have with her each month and usually several times during her period that given month, have a good day, and hopefully we can meet up in chat tonight or sometime soon, Love, Nammy ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ So, the answer to your question as posed and answered totally truthfully earlier, is that no, and yes, I do and do not have a blood fetish. I have a pleasure fetish during heavy BDSM sessions with painslaves and I have a harmless menstrual fetish will all women partners including the most vanilla of ones. Any case, this letter has ended up way too lengthy, I hope you enjoyed reading it, hope you understand me a little better, and hope our friendship can continue to grow, Hugs, Platonic Kisses, Smiles, Love, Peedy/PlanetDweller Pleas visit my free author's website of erotic adult stories similar to the above at: http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Authors/PlanetDweller/www mail to: planet_dweller@yahoo.com <1st attachment end> ----- ASSM Moderation System Notice------ Notice: This post has been modified from its original format. 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