Message-ID: <22546asstr$949205401@assm.asstr-mirror.org> X-Original-Path: not-for-mail From: Jacques LeBlanc Lines: 951 X-Original-Message-ID: <86vrb0$m58$1@nnrp1.deja.com> X-Article-Creation-Date: Sat Jan 29 22:58:42 2000 GMT Subject: {ASSM} Reciprocity 2: Interlude with Waffles (M/f, teen, celeb, cons, rom) by Jacques LeBlanc Date: Sat, 29 Jan 2000 23:10:01 -0500 Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail Approved: Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d X-Archived-At: X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation X-Story-Submission: X-Moderator-ID: dennyw, newsman, gill-bates Reciprocity 2: Interlude with Waffles by Jacques LeBlanc (M/f, teen, celeb, cons, rom) I woke to see sunlight slanting through the Venetian blinds on my bedroom window. Natalie still slept; my left arm rested across her lovely little breasts, and she clasped it against her body like a security blanket. *But I give her much more security than a blanket,* I thought, feeling a warm glow of pride for my exploits of the previous night. I got up on my elbow so that I could see her face, moving carefully so as not to wake her, and recalled a truth I had learned years before: there is no sight in the universe more beautiful than your lover's face in repose, bathed in the golden light of morning. *Especially this lover,* I thought. I still couldn't quite believe my luck. In the previous twenty-four hours, I had completed the mission to which I had devoted the last two years of my life, ending the lives of the white-supremacist thugs who had gunned down my parents and made a snuff video of my fiancee. In the process, I had rescued their latest intended victim: the stunningly beautiful young actress and model Natalie Portman. *Natalie Levine,* I reminded myself, and smiled. Telling me her real name had been her first act of trust; her last had been the willing surrender of her virginity. *Which she may well regret, once she's back in her normal life and has time to think about all of this.* My smile vanished. *I just hope she doesn't resent me for accepting her offer. I don't want her hurt, and I don't want her to hurt me, either; she can make a whole hell of a lot of trouble for me, if she wants to.* Natalie interrupted my musings by stirring in her sleep, rolling partway onto her back so that her shoulder pressed against my chest and her face turned toward the ceiling. The temptation was irresistible: I lowered my head and kissed her, a feather-light brush of my lips over hers. She responded by parting her lips slightly, and I moistened them with the tip of my tongue. In a moment she was kissing me in earnest, slow and deep with tongues entwining, while she turned the rest of the way onto her back. After we stopped, I watched a slow smile light up her face, spreading from her mouth up to her eyes, which finally fluttered open. "Good morning, Sleeping Beauty," I said. "Good morning, my Prince," she replied. "And how dost thou this fair spring morning?" I tried for a moment to frame a faux-medieval answer, then gave it up as a bad job. "Better than I've ever been since... since my loss. I've been dead for two years, Natalie, and it feels *great* to be alive again. And you know what? It wasn't taking out the Shadows that did that for me. It was you. As I said last night, you made it all worth while." "I'm glad. Because *you* made it worthwhile being kidnapped, Sam. I know this sounds crazy, but I think I'm actually glad that those scumbags chose me. You turned my nightmare into a fairy-tale, and gave me the most beautiful, perfect experience I've ever had." A snatch of melody from an old Danny Kaye movie surfaced in my head, and I felt so exuberant I just had to sing: "What starts like a scary tale/ Ends like a fairy-tale/And life couldn't possibly--not even probably-- life couldn't possibly better be!" Once again, I was pleasantly surprised by Natalie's taste in entertainment. "*The Court Jester,*" she said. "I love that movie, and the song is exactly right. I have a couple of friends that've slept with their boyfriends, you know, and both of them said that the first time was disappointing--first it hurt, and then it was over just when they were starting to like it. My first time was better than I ever could have imagined. Nothing can ever take that away from me, and I owe it to you." She wrapped her arms around me and drew me in for another long kiss. "I can't help wondering, though," I said after we stopped, "why did you do it? I mean, you were the girl that wasn't going to be asked to the prom because you'd made it clear to the guys that you wouldn't make out with them afterwards. Okay, so you did get asked, but you went out of your way to tell me that the guy was just a friend. Not to sound ungrateful, but I'm curious: what made you change your mind?" She gave me a somewhat incredulous look. "Isn't it obvious? Sam, I had *six hours* in that van to resign myself to the fact that my first experience with sex was going to be a gang rape that I'd be lucky to survive--wouldn't have survived, as it turned out. All the way, they kept pinching and poking and pawing at me, and laughing about how much 'fun' they were going to have when they got home...." her voice caught. I hugged her hard and said, "It's all right, sweetheart. You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to; don't get all *verklempt.*" The Yiddish word made her smile. "I'm okay. Anyway, I started to wish that I'd made love before. I was afraid that if I survived what they were going to do to me I'd be scarred for life, never be able to have a normal relationship... and I thought, if only I had some good memories about sex, maybe I could take my mind away and concentrate on that and what they were doing to my body wouldn't matter so much. And then we were there, and it was starting to happen, and to make it worse they were going to *film* it all--you must know how I feel about doing nude scenes in movies, I've turned down roles because of that... and then it was *over,* just like that, they were dead, and there was this gentle voice telling me everything was going to be all right, and gentle hands taking off the tape and the ropes. You were so good to me, Sam, do you realize that? I think you're one of the kindest people I've ever met. Maybe it stands out more because you're also capable of violence... but even in that, you weren't cruel. I could hear what happened, even though I couldn't see it; they were all dead in less than a minute. I think I'm a pretty nice, sensitive person, but by the time I got to that warehouse I was ready to burn those bastards at the stake, and if someone did to my family what they did to yours, well...." "I used to feel that way, Natalie," I admitted. "At first I wanted to hang the White Shadows by their toes and skin them alive. But after a while, I decided they just weren't worth it. Friedrich Nietzsche said that whoever battles monsters must take care not to become one. A lot of what Nietzsche said may have been crazy, but that particular comment made a lot of sense to me. If I hurt them they way they'd hurt me, that would mean I was no better than they were. They still had to die, Natalie, but not so I could feel better for it, even though I was pretty sure I would- and I do, actually. But the real reason they had to die was to stop them from doing to others what they did to my family. Did I call it revenge last night? A better term might be 'pest control.' What matters isn't how quickly or slowly they died, or even whether they knew why; what matters is that they're gone, and the world is a better place because of it." "You know, until yesterday I don't think I could ever have agreed with a statement like that... that the world is better for somebody's death. But after hearing about what they've done, and what they meant to do to me... you're right, it's good that they're dead." "You had doubts?" "I didn't think about them, last night. I was just thinking about how good it was to be alive. And to have a choice about where and when and with whom I would get rid of my virginity--I started to think of it as a burden during that awful ride in the van. And then there you were, Sam, and I'd never met anyone like you... you were like James Bond, or like I told my dad, a modern knight-errant. And I thought maybe you would expect me to go to bed with you, as a reward, and I was all ready to put up a token resistance and then let it happen, but you were a perfect gentleman. And that just made you even more attractive, but I wasn't sure how to approach you, so I just went to bed and figured I'd work it out later. After all, maybe it was foolish, wanting to throw myself at somebody I'd only just met, even if he did save my life. But then I had this *dream,* Sam... I remember it now, some of it: I was back in the van, only it wasn't a van, it was a coffin, and there were these cold, dead hands touching me everywhere, and voices whispering...." she shuddered. "I woke up and tried to calm down and couldn't, so I came to you. And you made it all right; sitting there with you, with your arm around me, felt as safe as sitting with my parents in my own living room. I think that's when I realized that it wasn't just attraction, I was falling in love with you--falling fast without a parachute, but that was okay if only you would catch me. And I knew something else, Sam... if I didn't act right then, there was a good chance that you would drive me home this morning, say goodbye, and catch the next flight to Israel... and I would never see you again." "So you seduced me," I said, smiling at her. She looked surprised at that description. "Yeah... yeah, I guess I did. Not that you were that hard to seduce...." "Natalie, love, I doubt you'll ever find out whether a man you want is hard to seduce or not; you're simply irresistible." "You think so?" "I know so. For all my training, for all my self-discipline, I could no more have told you 'no' last night than I could have grown wings and flown away." "And what about this morning?" she asked, smiling mischievously. I smiled back. "You want an encore performance?" "What better way to start the day?" She raised herself on one elbow, then sank back down with a grimace. "Ow. I should have done some stretching exercises after all those hours lying in one position in that blasted van... I'm sore all over." "Ah. Our, um... aerobics might have something to do with that, too. But here, let me see if I can help. Just lie flat on your stomach and relax." "Okay." She complied, while I got a bottle of sandalwood-scented oil from my night table drawer. I got up on my knees, straddling her waist, and poured a little of the oil into the palm of one hand, rubbing it between my hands to warm it. Then I began massaging her neck and shoulders, feeling for the places where muscles knotted up and slowly working the tension out of them. I worked my way gradually down from her shoulders to the small of her back, alternating between long strokes with the heels of my hands, and kneading with the tips of my fingers. "How's that?" I asked. "More pressure, or less, or is this just right?" Natalie smiled blissfully. "Just right," she replied. "Thanks, Sam, it feels... 'superb,'" she finished, mimicking Willie's father in *Beautiful Girls.* I chuckled and applied a bit more oil, then began working on her lower back with my knuckles. "It's easy when a girl has a light, slim build, like you," I commented. "My first girlfriend, back when I was in college... she wasn't overweight, exactly, but she was... I suppose stocky is the best word. I used to give her backrubs, and she always wanted me to press down as hard as I could and dig in with my fingers. After fifteen minutes of that, my hands would get tired and I'd have to stop. But this, I could keep up for hours... as long as you like, love. "Well, I do have to get home some time today... and I still want that 'encore performance.'" "Oh, we still have plenty of time," I replied. "I said I would drive you home, but it occurs to me that we could catch the Southwest Airlines shuttle from BWI to LaGuardia and save about three hours of travel time." Natalie's expression brightened. "Oh! Well, in that case, how about a full body massage?" "Good thought," I replied, shifting down a bit so that I could start working on her lovely little bottom. "This reminds me of a word game Andi invented," I said after a moment. "The idea was to come up with alliterative variants on 'beautiful bottom.' You can't use the same first letter twice, and the last person who can think of one wins. Natalie grinned at me over her shoulder. "Okay, you first," she said. "Admirable ass." She giggled. "All right, I have one: fabulous fanny." "Not bad. Shall we say the winner gets to be on top?" "Sounds fair to me. It's your turn." "Delightful derriere," I said, giving hers a squeeze. "Ooh, good one. All right, let me see... terrific tush." "Perfect posterior." "You come up with all the best ones," she grumbled. "I've played before, and besides, I've got the inspiration right in front of me," I replied. "But what matters is who gets the last one. Your turn." "Okay. Splendid seat." "Cute can." "Respectable rear." I laughed at that. "Some people might not call it very respectable just now... but all right. Excellent end. And I believe that's the last one; I don't recall any other euphemisms for 'bottom' that don't start with a letter we've already used. You can still be on top if you want, though." "No, wait a minute, I've got one: 'wonderful wump.'" "Oh! I never thought of using that Elmer Fudd accent to add another letter... okay, you win." I moved down a little further, massaging the backs of her thighs now, as well as continuing to work intermittently on her lower back and buttocks. She closed her eyes and relaxed as I gradually worked my way down over her calves, finishing up with a thorough foot massage. After about fifteen minutes of that, I paused and kissed her right heel. She curled her toes and made a purring sound. I leaned down and kissed the hollow of her right knee, then the swell of her left buttock, the small of her back, the tip of her right shoulder blade, and the nape of her neck. Then I pursed my lips and blew a thin stream of air over her ear. She chuckled softly. "You want me to turn over now?" she asked. "Well, you did say 'full body massage,'" I replied. Natalie obligingly rolled onto her back. I straddled her again and began to rub her shoulders and upper arms. After a couple of minutes of that, I moved my attentions to her breasts. Her areolae darkened and crinkled, and her nipples sprang erect, popping up between my fingers as I massaged the firm-soft flesh of her bosom. I lingered there for quite a while before moving down to her smooth belly, rubbing it with a light, circular motion, spiraling out from her navel until I crossed her mons. Mischievously, I slipped one finger between her thighs and ran it down the length of her slit. She caught my wrist and said, "Not yet. It's my turn." I nodded and got off her, lying face-down so that she could return the massage. Her delicate looking fingers proved surprisingly strong as she followed the same sequence I had with her, working gradually from my neck down to my feet and kissing her way back up before asking me to turn over. When she straddled me again, working her fingers into the flat planes of my pectorals, I could feel her vulva pressing against my stomach. The sensation made my cock rise and stand at attention; I contracted the Kegel muscles at the base, making it tap against her tailbone. She raised her eyebrows, and I said, "About that encore...." "Okay... rubbers are in here, right?" She climbed off and reached for the night table. "Yah. And the massage oil goes back in there, too, if you don't mind...." She put it away, then produced a condom and the K-Y. "You want a bit of this on the inside, right?" she asked. I nodded. She tore open the packet, put a drop of the jelly into the tip of the condom, and carefully rolled it onto my straining cock. Then, instead of applying more K-Y to the outside, she straddled my thighs and inched herself up my body, pushing the shaft of my cock back against my stomach and letting her vulva slide up it, wetting it with her own lubricant. When she reached the tip, she raised herself on her knees, took it in her hand, and lined it up with her vagina; then she sank ever so slowly back down, impaling herself on me. A tremor ran up my spine, and I had to fight for a moment to keep my control; I wanted this to last as long as possible. "Wow," I gasped, as the edge receded. "You learn fast, sweetheart. If I didn't know first- hand that you were a virgin twelve hours ago, I'd think you'd been taking an AP course in applied sensuality." She grinned and leaned forward, her hair falling like a curtain to one side of her face, and placed her hands on my shoulders. Her clit pressed against my pubic bone, and her inner muscles fluttered around my cock. "You like this?" she asked, breathily. "That's the understatement of the year, love. You're magnificent." She smiled at the compliment, then straightened up and began moving up and down, finding her rhythm on me. I reached up and cupped her breasts, stroking my thumbs over her nipples. She shut her eyes and threw her head and shoulders back, losing herself in the sensations of our love making. Perhaps because I had not "warmed her up" with oral sex this time, Natalie's climax was a long time coming, and it took every ounce of my considerable willpower to hold off my own orgasm as she slowly climbed toward hers. Finally, she stiffened and began keening, her vagina clenching frantically around my cock. As it had last night, her orgasm triggered mine, an electric surge of pleasure that started in my loins and crackled through my nervous system, making my whole body tingle. As it subsided, I sat up and hugged Natalie, and she slumped against my chest. I crossed my legs tailor-fashion, she wrapped hers around my waist, and we sat there for a while as our strength returned. At length, my softening cock slipped out of her with an audible plop. I chuckled, and she raised her head from my shoulder and smiled at me, our faces just inches apart. "That was even better than the first time," she said. "For me as well," I replied. "You're an even better lover than you are an actress--and you know I love your movies." "Yeah." She tilted her head to one side and kissed me, a slow, sweet kiss that warmed the fading afterglow of our passion. I thought for a moment of starting again, but decided that if we did that we might never get out of bed--and I *had* promised that I would take her home today. When the kiss broke, I asked, "Would you like to take a shower?" "Together, you mean?" "Naturally; no reason to waste water." She grinned at me. "Yeah, I'd like that a lot... although I'm not sure that the two of us showering together will use any less water than we would separately." "Perhaps not," I allowed. "But it's certainly more fun." I disengaged myself from her and stood up; then she held out her hands, and I took them in mine and pulled her to her feet and into another lingering hug and kiss. "Sam?" Natalie asked somewhat diffidently when we stopped. "Do you mind if I, um, use the bathroom alone before we shower?" "Not at all, sweetheart; just because we're lovers doesn't mean we can't have privacy when we want it. Take as long as you need." "Thanks, I'll just be a minute." She vanished into the bathroom. I took the opportunity to dispose of the condom and wipe off most of the K-Y and semen with a couple of Kleenex. When Natalie opened the door again, I said, "I need to do the same. You can wait outside if you like, or stay and get the water running." "I guess I don't mind if you don't," she said. She turned and went to the tub while I stepped to the toilet and emptied my bladder. "It's probably easier for guys," I observed as I flushed. "We can face the wall while doing our business, and we're used to urinals in our public restrooms." Natalie had the water going now, and was holding her hand under the spigot to adjust the temperature before turning on the shower. I should mention that my bathroom is not what you would typically expect in a farm house; I expanded it after I moved in, installing a whirlpool tub with glass doors and an adjustable shower head. As I had told Natalie the night before, I like to live comfortably. "You know," I said, "It might be a good idea to take a bath instead of a shower; soaking in the tub helps get the massage oil out of your pores." "Good thinking," she replied, raising the little switch that plugged the drain, and turning up the faucets so that the tub would fill faster. Even with the water on full blast, it was several minutes before we climbed in. I turned on the whirlpool pump and then stretched out with Natalie in my lap, leaning back on my chest as I rested against the back of the tub. For a few minutes we just lay there, luxuriating in the hot, swirling water. Then I picked up the soap and washcloth and proceeded to wash Natalie's breasts and shoulders, delighting in the slick warmth of her wet skin under my hands. She sat up, allowing me to do her back as well. When that was done she raised one arm and then the other, then stood up so that I could wash her belly, thighs, and bottom, and finally sat back down and lifted one leg at a time so that I could get to her calves and her dainty little feet. When I had thoroughly soaped her entire body, she took the soap and the cloth and did the same for me. "Careful with that," I said, as she ran soapy fingers over my semi-erect cock. "It's loaded." She laughed and stroked it a couple of times, until I reminded her that we didn't have all day. Once we had finished washing each other's bodies, I got the shampoo and spent several minutes working it into her scalp--another form of massage. Again, she returned the favor. Finally, we drained the tub, stood up, and turned the shower on to rinse off the shampoo and soapy bath water, embracing and kissing passionately under the spray. I got out first, picked up a towel and held it out so that Natalie could step into it, and we dried each other, after which I carefully brushed out her silky brown hair. "You really know how to make a girl feel appreciated, Sam," she said, as I put the brush away. "Thank you," I replied. "It's nice to know that I haven't lost my touch in two years." "Definitely not." She thought of something then that made her pause; she gave me an appraising look, then asked, "Has it really been two years? I mean, I don't want to be nosy, but well... you did have condoms and massage oil in your bedside drawer...." I took a long moment before answering, wondering how she would take the truth. Finally I said, "Two years since I had a real lover, Natalie; two years since it was anything more than another deception, another piece of the man I was pretending to be. No, I haven't been entirely celibate; in the circles I've been moving in, that would have been suspicious. I've had a few one-night stands and weekend flings... I've used up condoms, and massage oil, and shared baths too. But I haven't brushed a girl's hair since Andi was killed. It's funny, the things we hang onto; that little ritual, trivial as it might seem, was very special for us, and I've waited for someone I really cared about to share it with. I hope that Andi would have approved of my choice." She looked up at me gravely. "I hope so too, Sam. She must have been quite a girl; I wish I could have met her." I nodded. "She would have liked that. She loved your first two movies as much as I did." I decided not to mention that Andi had been bisexual, at least in theory, and had been as taken with young Natalie as I had; I wasn't sure how she would take that information. "But we can't change the past, Natalie; all we can do is try to make the future better. C'mon, lets get dressed and have some breakfast." We went back to the bedroom. Natalie picked up her dress and paused, looking at it. "This is going to stick out like a sore thumb in the airport," she said. "I wish I had something else. I don't suppose you'd have anything in the house that would fit me?" "No," I said, pulling on a t-shirt, "I'm afraid not. And you're right, that would attract an awful lot of attention. Tell you what, just put this on for now"--I handed her a light terrycloth robe from the closet-- "and I'll see what I can come up with after breakfast." I finished dressing and went to the kitchen, with Natalie in tow. There I began pulling ingredients from the cupboards and refrigerator. "I was planning to celebrate this morning anyway," I said, as I got out my blender and began grinding up a mixture of cashews, pecans, and sunflower seeds. "This is my father's recipe for waffles. Have you ever read *Lord of the Rings?*" She nodded. "Well, this is the closest thing you're ever likely to find in real life, both in flavor and nutrition, to the waybread of the elves." "Sounds good," she said. "I don't think I've ever had nut waffles before." "Then you're in for a treat," I replied. I busied myself with blending other ingredients, whipping egg-whites, and warming up the waffle iron. After watching me for a couple of minutes, Natalie asked whether there was anything she could do. "Well," I said, "If you'd like coffee with breakfast, you could get that going. There's ground coffee in a can in the freezer, and the filters are in the cupboard above the coffee machine. She nodded and set to work; by the time I had finished mixing the waffle batter she had the coffee maker bubbling away cheerfully, and the first cups of coffee were ready shortly before the first waffle. I added cream and sugar sparingly; Natalie used somewhat more, then cautiously raised her mug and took a sip. "This is good," she said, after a moment. She took another sip, and her face brightened. "This is really good." I grinned. "It's Jamaica Blue Mountain. I told you I like to live well." "You weren't kidding." Then she got that appraising look again. "I've been wondering, Sam--how did the son of an FBI agent and a woman who worked for the Anti-Defamation League come to be so well-off? If you don't mind my asking...." "Not at all. My paternal grandmother's maiden name was 'Rothschild,' with--well, if not *all* that that name implies, then certainly a lot of it. My father started playing the stock market the day after his Bar Mitzvah. He was a pretty canny investor, and in the last few years before he died he was riding the largest, longest bull market in history; I inherited an estate worth just over nine million dollars. A good bit of it went into my training in Israel, of course, and more of it went to buy this place, and a couple of safehouses I can run to if things get hot. Most of what's left is invested in various stocks and bonds where it earns a comfortable income, or socked away in numbered accounts for emergencies. I also used some of it to work my way into the confidences of the white supremacists; groups like that generally welcome anyone who makes large donations to the cause...." She looked up at me sharply, and I suddenly felt that I had said too much. Fortunately, the waffle iron buzzed, allowing me to change the subject gracefully before we could get into a discussion of the ethical implications of those donations. I wasn't sure what Natalie had made of that revelation, but I had enough qualms of my own that I preferred not to have it as topic of breakfast conversation. "What kind of syrup do you like? I've got maple, raspberry, and Maine blueberry." "I like all of them," Natalie replied. "But I'll start with maple." The waffles, as always, were delicious: light and fluffy, their nutty flavor making a perfect counterpoint to the sweetness of the various syrups. At the first taste Natalie's face lit up; she ate slowly, savoring each bite, and I took vicarious pleasure in her enjoyment of my favorite breakfast. We ate a waffle and a half each, splitting the first three to come out of the iron. I made several more, using up the batter, and put them in the freezer for future meals. As we loaded the dishwasher, I said, "I think I've got the solution to your clothing problem. There's a Wal-mart about ten minutes from here; we can stop there and pick you up a t-shirt and a pair of jeans." "Sounds reasonable," she said. "What do we say if someone gets nosy?" "Oh, let's see... um. What's your middle name?" "Rose," she replied. "It suits you. Okay, you're my cousin Rose from New York, you're visiting for the week, we went dancing last night right after you arrived, and your bag with all your clothes got stolen out of the car. And if anyone comments on your resemblance to a certain movie star, you smile and say, 'Yeah, I get that all the time.'" She grimaced. "I do, actually; every wise-cracking freshman guy at my school thinks he's the first one to come up with that joke--'Say, you look a lot like the girl in the movies, what's her name, Portman? Yeah, Natalie Portman.' I usually just say, 'Gee, I wonder why....'" "Well, don't say that this time," I said. "We don't need the kind of attention that would generate." "No problem," she said. "While we're there, maybe we should pick up a pair of sunglasses, too. The less of my face people see, the better." "Good thinking," I replied. "We'll do that." Natalie went back to the bedroom to change while I started the dishwasher running and finished cleaning up the kitchen. When she returned she had her dress and heels on again. "You know, Sam," she said, "When I put this dress on last night I was expecting to dance. I know we don't have a lot of time, but... one song?" "Sure," I said. "I believe you mentioned 'Only the Good Die Young,' last night...." "And you said you prefer to listen to it when you can dance to it. Well, now's the time." "'This is the time to remember, 'cause it will not last forever?' That's a different song...." She glared at me, and I said, "Okay, okay. This way." I showed her into the den, where I kept my television, stereo, and other electronic amusements. Instead of the carpeting I had in the rest of the house, this room had a wood parquet floor and a Persian rug. I moved a coffee table to one side of the room, rolled the rug up and pushed it to the other side, leaving an expanse of bare wood suitable for dancing. I had brought my CD case in from the car the night before; now I extracted "The Stranger" and slipped it into the disc changer. I faced Natalie in the center of the room and assumed closed dance position, my left hand clasping her right, my right hand behind her, holding the remote control for the changer. I queued up track six, hit "play," then tossed the remote onto the couch and rested my hand against Natalie's shoulder blade. The bright, jaunty piano chords that open "Only the Good Die Young" never fail to get my blood up and my feet tapping. I took a moment to catch the rhythm, then began to dance the basic step of East Coast Swing, triple step, triple-step, rock-step, triple-step, triple-step, rock- step.... As the lyrics began, I sang along, changing a few words to suit the occasion: "Come out, Natalie, don't let me wait,/You nice Jewish girls start much too late--" Natalie replied in her sweet soprano: "Ah, but sooner or later it comes down to fate./ You might as well be the one...." "They showed you a Torah and told you to pray,/They built you a temple and locked you away./Ah, but they never told you the price that you pay- - " "The things that I might have done--" "And only the good die young!" We finished the verse in unison. I lifted my left hand and she spun under it, finishing in open dance position. I stepped forward and left, continuing the simplest East Coast Swing sequence: natural turn, two reverse turns with change of places, man's reverse hand change turn, and back to closed position. Natalie followed perfectly, so I began to improvise, and then we were both too busy to sing any more. As Natalie executed a particularly fast out-and- back turn, I noted that she had been right about the dress: the skirt had a tendency to flare wide, then twist up around her waist, so that someone sitting down might well have caught a glimpse of her underwear. As the song faded away, I spun her out one last time and stopped, inclining my head in a token bow and lifting her hand to my lips. "Thank you for the dance," I said. "Thank *you*," Natalie replied, executing a small curtsy. "That was a lot of fun. We'll have to do it again sometime." "That we will," I agreed. The next song, "She's Always a Woman," began to play, but I lifted the remote and stopped it. "We really should get going now. Besides, there isn't room here to do the Viennese Waltz, even if I were any good at it." I picked up the CD case and walked toward the door, Natalie falling into step beside me. "Viennese is a hard one," she agreed. "Beautiful to watch, though, when the dancers know what they're doing." "True. I never quite got the hang of it. Andi and I took dance lessons together, but we mostly did American ballroom and swing; I never really got into international style, though she'd learned some of it back in England." "I know some international, but I'm better at American. It's a good thing for an actress to know how to do; you never know when a role might come up that requires you to dance, and besides, it's a lot of fun." We paused on the front porch while I locked the door and activated the house's security system. "It's another thing I've missed these past two years," I said. "I still go out dancing once in a while, but not on a regular basis, never too close to where I live, and never at the same place twice; it's another thing that wouldn't fit in with my neo-Nazi persona. Ted Baker. God, I hate that bastard, even if he is just a figment of my imagination. Erasing him from my life is going to be almost as satisfying as taking out the White Shadows. Which reminds me, I think I've figured out how to solve my legal problems." I opened the car door for her. "Oh?" she said, as she got into the car. "What's the plan?" "One moment." I walked around to the driver's side and got in. "After I take you home, I will be going to Israel--but not permanently, the way I originally planned," I said, as I started the car. "Once I'm there, I'm going to get in touch with a good lawyer--I know of several around the Baltimore area--and have him contact the local District Attorney's office with an offer to close the cases on the Goldberg- Braithewaite murders and the killings in the warehouse last night, and give them two years worth of inside information about the white supremacist movement in the mid- Atlantic region--including the distribution network for the White Shadows' snuff films. All they have to do in return is grant immunity from prosecution to one vigilante whom they would have no hope of catching anyway, and who would be nearly impossible to convict if they did, since he killed his targets during a hostage situation." I wouldn't mention Curtis Byron, of course, to her or anybody else; if all went well, his apparent suicide would never be connected to me. "It makes sense," Natalie said. "Why should they go after you when they could be going after the Nazis?" "Exactly. If I went to trial, I could become a hero to all the minorities the Shadows targeted--and their victims have included blacks, Hispanics, Jews, and at least one Korean girl. No D.A. with any political ambition is going to want to piss off all of those groups-- not to mention your fans. She grinned at that. "Right. If they put you on trial, I'll get all the *Star Wars* fans in Maryland to come and demonstrate for your release. I laughed. "Now there's a prosecutor's nightmare. The only thing that could make it better is having some neo-Nazis and Klansmen outside praising the D.A. and demanding my execution--which isn't too unlikely, either. Anyway, I won't set foot back in this country without immunity. I won't let my lawyer know where in Israel I am, or what name I'm using there, either; if the D.A. doesn't want to give me immunity, I wish him luck trying to persuade the Israelis to locate and extradite a dead man." "Like you said, you're the man who thinks of everything. It sounds like you've got all the bases covered." "I certainly hope so," I said. "I'd love to be able to come back to the U.S. and get my name back. I'm sick to death of being Ted Baker, and I'm not overly fond of Daniel Rothstein, either--that was my name at the Mossad training camp. Daniel wasn't evil like Baker, but he was one cold-blooded S.O.B. It's been very, very good finding out that I still have some genuine feelings other than righteous wrath. And I have you to thank for that, Natalie." I reached over and squeezed her hand. Natalie gave me a thoughtful look. "You know," she reflected, "I always thought that the man I lost my virginity with would be the man I wanted to spend my life with. And now that I've done it, more or less on the spur of the moment, I find that hasn't changed." She paused, expectantly. I wasn't sure I wanted to deal with this just now. "A preposition is a terrible word to end a sentence with," I temporized. She fisted me lightly in the shoulder. "I believe Winston Churchill said, 'That is the sort of nonsense up with which I shall not put.' Seriously, Sam; you saved my life, and you've been incredibly good to me since then. You're my knight in shining armor, and I want you to be my boyfriend, and maybe someday my husband. Will you please at least think about it?" I took a deep breath, and let it out slowly. "I'm pretty hard to live with, Natalie... I'm stubborn, and I'm opinionated, and despite that kindness you talk about, I can be pretty obtuse about other people's feelings sometimes. And I'm an unregenerate carnivore--you vegetarians can keep the moral high ground, I prefer the view from the top of the food chain." She laughed. "I can deal with that... I'll respect your choices as long as you respect mine. My parents aren't vegetarians, and we get along just fine." "Okay, but setting that aside for a moment, there are still a lot of differences between us. I can be a friend to you, Natalie, and a lover, and a protector if you should ever need one, and perhaps even a mentor-- at least if you decide to major in biology. But I don't know that I can be a soul-mate--not to you, maybe not to anyone. Not after what I've lost. Yes, it's true that you reawakened feelings I thought were dead, but that doesn't mean that I'm completely healed, or that I ever will be. Do you understand?" She nodded sympathetically. "Yeah, I guess I do... but I hope you'll give yourself a chance. Maybe not with me, but you're too good a man to go through life alone. And if we do stay friends--and all the rest-- who's to say what might happen?" "Not I, love; I gave up trying to predict the future a long time ago." "Okay. Just promise me one thing: promise me that we'll see each other again." "That I will promise, Natalie. We'll be together again, even if I have to fly you to Israel. After that... we'll let nature take its course. All right?" "All right." "Here we are," I said, pulling into the parking lot at Wal-Mart. "Remember our cover." "Cousin Rose from New York, dressed for dancing, the rest of my clothes got stolen, right. And if anyone notices that I look like that girl from Star Wars, 'Yeah, I get that all the time.'" "All right, let's go." >From the way the clerk looked at us, I think she may have suspected that we were running away together, but in any event she accepted our explanation for Natalie's dress without comment. When we left Natalie was wearing black sneakers, black jeans, a black t-shirt with intertwined red and white roses on it, and sunglasses, and carrying her dress in a black backpack. "You look like a Goth," I observed, as we walked back to the car. "Exactly," she said. "That's never been my style, and it's not an image anyone would associate with me. The idea is not to be recognized, right?" "Makes sense," I replied. "It's not the most inconspicuous outfit you could have chosen, but as long as people who look at you think 'gorgeous Goth girl' and not 'isn't that the girl from Star Wars?,' we should be okay. By unspoken agreement, we kept the conversation light on the way to the airport, talking of books and movies and music. At some point we got onto biology, which had been my college major, and Natalie's favorite subject in high school. This led to a discussion of the long-running feud between Stephen Jay Gould and Richard Dawkins, the two leading modern popularizers of evolutionary theory, which carried on into the flight to New York. Like many American biology students, Natalie had read some of Gould's essays, but knew of Dawkins only from Gould's criticisms of his ideas. (Among British students, the reverse is often true. Gould is a professor at Harvard, while Dawkins hails from Oxford, and their rivalry is in some ways a microcosm of the rivalry between the British and American scientific establishments.) I explained that while I greatly admire and respect both men, I generally find Dawkins's arguments more cogent on those subjects about which they disagree. By the time we landed Natalie had promised to read Dawkins's seminal work, "The Selfish Gene," over the summer. I looked forward to discussing the ideas in it when next we met--between sessions of lovemaking, of course. We rented a car for the drive out to Natalie's house. She seemed curiously subdued on the way there; when I asked whether something was wrong, she replied, "No, I'm just thinking. It's amazing how much can change in twenty-four hours. I mean, since this time yesterday, I've been kidnapped, come face to face with the most horrible death I can imagine, been rescued by a man who's supposed to be dead, fallen in love, lost my virginity, and had a few other interesting new experiences besides, like a full-body massage and sharing a shower and nut waffles washed down with Blue Mountain coffee." She flashed me a smile. "Pretty eventful day, don't you think?" "For both of us, sweetheart, believe me. I knew that this was going to be a turning point in my life, but only because it was going to be the end of the White Shadows--or possibly of me, if the operation went south on me. You were as much of a surprise to me as I was to you--and at least as pleasant." "I don't know about that," she said. "I didn't save your life, after all." "Not literally, perhaps," I replied. "But you made me feel alive again, and I think that's worth as much to me. There's been no joy in my life since Andi and my parents were killed, Natalie. Pleasure, yes; that's why I spend so much on luxuries like Blue Mountain coffee, and that sybaritic bathroom. Pleasure helps fill the void, but in the end it's a hollow substitute for joy." "I guess I see what you're saying. By pleasure you mean something purely physical, right? And joy is something more spiritual?" "More or less. Another way of looking at it is that pleasure comes from the hindbrain--it's the reward your body gives your mind for fulfulling some vital function, like satisfying hunger or procreating. Any animal with a nervous system can probably feel some form of pleasure. Joy, on the other hand, is based in the forebrain--it's a byproduct of self awareness. It comes from knowing that you've accomplished something good--something like saving your life, love. Or giving you pleasure...." I added, smiling lasciviously. She returned the look with interest. "It's too bad we can't stop for while and...." she let the sentence trail off suggestively. "I know, sweetheart. I'd like that too, but we really have to get you home. Speaking of which, here's the exit you told me to look for...." After we got off the freeway, Natalie directed me through her neighborhood; in about ten minutes we reached her home, an attractive two-story house with well-kept shrubbery in front. Before we got out of the car, we shared one last slow, sweet kiss--the good-bye kiss I dared not give her where her parents could see. Then we walked up to the house. Natalie's parents greeted us at the door; her mother embraced her tearfully while her father pumped my hand and thanked me for her safe return. I politely declined their invitation to dinner, explaining that I had a lot of things to take care of, but that I would be delighted to dine with them on my return from Israel, which I hoped would be in three or four weeks. After giving Natalie a final hug and a chaste kiss on the forehead, I took my leave. I got home around 7:00 PM. Before leaving the airport, I had booked a flight to London for the morning after next; there I would switch identities before travelling to Israel. After a quick dinner, I went into my study and started up my computer. When I had first arrived at the Shadows' warehouse the previous day, I had broken in and planted the blasting cap that had diverted their attention when I started shooting. I had also raided the computer they kept in the warehouse office, copying the entire contents of its hard drive onto a Jaz disk. Now I began to pick apart the files there, to see what I could learn that might improve the deal I intended to offer the DA. It took me a couple of hours to crack the encryption Kessler had used on sensitive files, but in the end the Mossad designed software I used uncovered his key. Most of it was what I had expected to find: information about the distribution of the Shadows' snuff films, and the ways in which they laundered the money they made from that activity, along with several robberies they had committed. However, there were several cryptic e- mails, and some details in the other files, which didn't make sense at first. I sat there long into the night, trying to discern a pattern. When I finally put it together, I leaned back in my chair with a low whistle. "This is not good," I murmured to my computer. Apparently, the Shadows had been one cell in a larger organization. They were the primary operatives; behind them was at least one and perhaps two or three more cells, currently inactive, which would take their place if they were ever compromised. Over all the cells was a commander whose identity was apparently known only to Kessler and the other cell leaders. From this elusive individual's grasp of insurgent organization, I suspected he might be a former military officer, but I could glean no solid information about him from Kessler's files; even his existence was an inference, although one about which I had no serious doubts. When I was sure there was nothing more to be learned from Kessler's files, I shut off the computer and sat back to think. My most prudent option, of course, would be to go to Israel and never come back... but I disliked the idea of running from these people. Better to keep on fighting. My advantage of complete surprise was gone now, but that wasn't my only advantage. I was a trained operative, and my opponents were amateurs, or at best common soldiers like Kessler, who had been a First Sergeant in the Marine Corps. The commander might be an officer, possibly even a special-forces officer, but I very much doubted that any of his subordinates were any better trained than Kessler; for an operation such as this, keeping one's best units in reserve made no sense. Also, I would not be the only person hunting the terrorists; the information I had developed would allow the FBI to bring its considerable resources to bear on the problem of identifying and arresting everyone remotely connected to the White Shadows. Any attempt they made to come after me would increase their chances of being noticed by the feds... and of course, my skills and my resources would make me a difficult target... I smiled, a predatory expression with no mirth in it at all. "All right, you bastards," I whispered, "Come on out and play...." The End (For Now) Author's Note: in case anybody is curious about Sam's recipe for waffles, here it is. They really are the closest thing you'll find in real life to Tolkien's *lembas.* Enjoy. World's Best Waffles 1) Put into blender: --1/3 cup sunflower seeds --1/3 cup pecan pieces --1/3 cup cashew or walnut pieces Grind to "nut butter" 2) Separate 4 extra large eggs. Place whites in bowl of electric mixer and yolks in blender with nuts. 3) Add to blender: --3/8 cup corn oil --2/3 cup milk or buttermilk Blend till smooth 4) Whip egg whites to stiff peaks and set aside 5) Measure 4 cups low fat Bisquick into an empty mixing bowl. Add contents of blender. "Rinse" blender with 2 cups of milk and add to rest of mixture. Mix together until smooth. 6) Fold egg whites into mixture gently by hand with mixing tool from mixer or rubber spatula. 7) Bake in waffle iron until golden brown. -- Pursuant to the Berne Convention, this work is copyright with all rights reserved by its author unless explicitly indicated. +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+ | alt.sex.stories.moderated ----- send stories to: | | FAQ: Moderator: | +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+ |Archive: Hosted by Alt.Sex.Stories Text Repository | |, an entity supported entirely by donations. | +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+