Message-ID: <21347asstr$943056602@assm.asstr-mirror.org>
X-Original-Message-ID: <19991119125715.77687.qmail@hotmail.com>
From: "Joanna De Brito"
Subject: {ASSM} {Joanna} A Posteriori (M/F)
Mime-Version: 1.0
Content-Type: text/plain; format=flowed
Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999 19:10:02 -0500
Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail
Approved:
Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories
Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d
X-Archived-At:
X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation
X-Story-Submission:
X-Moderator-ID: dennyw, kelly, Lambchop
A Posteriori
by Joanna (joanna_de_brito@hotmail.com)
July 2000
Copyright 2000 Joanna de Brito
All commercial rights reserved. Non commercial use of this
story is permitted as long as I am kept informed of that use
by e-mail and all author and copyright messages remain
intact.
An attractive brunette was peering over my garden hedge,
staring at me from under the shadow of a giant horse
chestnut. I'm not sure how long she'd been there. I could
hear nothing over the noise of the electric mower. Even now
I'm not sure what made me turn. Something did. "Excuse me,"
she said. "Do you think I might have a drink of water?"
I was hot and irritable. Perspiration was stinging my eyes,
was running across my face, and was soaking my clothes. I
switched off the mower and waited for the motor to wind
down. I didn't want to talk. My overriding thought was how I
could get rid of her.
"Pardon?"
She walked tentatively along the hedge towards me, stopping
by the gate. I could now see her properly, her youth, her
appeal. "Would it be asking too much to trouble you for a
glass of water?" she repeated sluggishly. "It's so hot and
I'm feeling a little faint."
She smiled wanly and fluttered her eyelashes, trying to
overcome my obvious reluctance. I couldn't deny that she was
a stunner: lustrous hair, a gorgeous face, bright green
eyes, oh, and she this body too. What a body! Her large
breasts were bulging over the top of a subdued red dress.
She also had a wonderfully tight waist, nice hips and long
legs. She was a dream.
But that's all I do nowadays: dream.
There was a time when I would have been after her, chasing
her panties, fast talking, trying to wangle her out of her
clothes. How long ago that now seems. Times change, we grow
older, perhaps wiser.
Somewhat under duress, I brought her the water and she took
it gratefully. My, she was sexy. Despite being an old semi
recluse I had to admit it. It's such a long time since I've
thought about women: such a very long time. Yet, I rued,
that's where I must now condemn her: to my thoughts. I
wasn't in her league; we were chalk and cheese, she and I.
This one could afford to be choosy. She wouldn't look at me.
I was too old, ancient: why, she must be ten years my
junior, she was hardly more than twenty.
She sipped the water, thanking me appreciatively, while I
waited impatiently for the glass, conscious of how dirty I
was, how sweaty, how unworthy.
"How are you feeling?" I inquired. The more I looked at her,
the more concerned I was because she seemed exhausted,
dehydrated. I recalled an incident that had occurred several
years before when I had been training for a fun run in the
London Marathon. The day had been hot, just like today; I
had been ill prepared and I had become dehydrated. I
remembered sinking to my knees, exhausted, drained. How
thankful I had been when an Indian man had come over from a
house nearby and had given me a lift home. What made me
remember that? I could empathize.
"Would you mind if I sat down?" she asked breathlessly. "I'm
not usually like this... I don't understand... I was fine a
couple of minutes ago. The heat..."
I took her inside and sat her on the couch in my living
room. It's a small room, and it was quickly and easily
filled by the pungent musk of her perfume. I was intoxicated
by it. She smelled so sweet; so alluring. She reminded me of
lost days, distant, remote.
"Let me open a window," I fussed. "Give you some air."
Without waiting for her reply, I opened it wide. Immediately
and without warning a wasp sailed in. It was as though it
had been waiting just outside specifically for this
invitation. She was nervous. She was scared of wasps, she
told me. She shrank apprehensively to the far side of the
room. I waved at this yellow intruder, once, twice: it
didn't want to go. I swore at it profusely which words it
seemed to understand, because at last it bid us farewell and
went.
"It's gone," I said victoriously, sitting down opposite her.
She smiled politely, weakly. "Thank you. Do you think I
might have some more water?"
She held out her empty glass, which I took.
"Have you come far?" I inquired, getting up and walking into
the kitchen. "Where do you live?"
It was the wrong question. I wasn't sure why, but it put her
out of sorts. "No, not far," she said at last, rather
vaguely, irritably.
I tried offering her a drink, something stronger than the
water she had asked for. She declined; water would be just
fine, she said. I turned on the cold tap and allowed it to
run for several seconds. Then I refilled her glass and then
brought it back in. I hesitated. "Do you have any friends
that I can call? Someone that could come and collect you?"
I handed her the glass. She thanked me.
"No," she said, shaking her head firmly. "No. No friends."
She held the glass tightly, anxiously looking round the
small room at pictures of vultures, warblers and cormorants,
running her hands through her long dark hair.
I sighed. I was beginning to regret having invited her in.
I'm not particularly a sociable person. I find conversation
hard at the best of times and when, as now, the other person
doesn't contribute their fair share, I quickly give up. It
was only her body that was keeping me interested, that
sensuous, carnal magnificence. "What do I call you?" I
inquired. Surely I couldn't go wrong with this one.
She didn't answer.
One last try. "My name is Greg," I offered. "Greg Isitt."
"Yes," she shivered.
"Yes?"
"Yes, your name is Greg. I know."
"You know?" I stuttered, pausing. What? "How do you know?"
She chose instead to answer my earlier question. "My name is
Nicki."
I pondered. "Nicki," I repeated the name thoughtfully. "So
how do you know me? Have we met before?" I examined her
carefully as I spoke, trying to think where our paths might
have crossed. Her round face, green eyes, long brown hair,
curled into tight ringlets, all was unfamiliar. She wore
large looped gold earrings, a fine gold chain around her
neck, an amethyst bracelet. These meant nothing to me. Her
body too, those breasts... I was sure that if I had come
across these charms before, I would have remembered them.
She sipped at her water. She was half way through the second
glass. "No," she answered. "We haven't met."
"Yet you know my name?" I pursued.
"Yes. You see, I'm sorry, I must apologize. I told you a
little fib in the garden. I'm sorry. It's... You see, well,
I've come a long way to meet you."
To meet me? Why should she want to meet me? Who was she?
It's at times like these that random thoughts shoot through
your mind and you try to find something, anything that makes
sense. Was she a private investigator sent to entrap me,
perhaps? I didn't think so. She had no motive. I have no
wife, no girlfriend, no one that cares enough even to
dislike me.
A long lost relative perhaps? Might that be it? This seemed
just as unlikely. I'm not well related. She was not the
right age to be my illegitimate daughter by some ancient
forgotten relationship: that, I reflected, would require me
to be about ten when she was conceived. Beyond that, it was
all so improbable, I just don't have enough relatives.
Who then could she be? I racked my brains yet could think of
nobody.
"I think you owe me an explanation," I insisted, clasping my
hands tightly together and rather dreading the answer I was
about to receive.
She looked up at me uneasily. "It's rather a long story,"
she said. "I'm not sure that you'll believe me."
"Try me."
She had looked up, but I noticed that she couldn't hold my
gaze. "Are you a betting man?" she asked timidly, playing
nervously with the top button of her dress, pushing it in
and out of the buttonhole.
"I've been known to accept the odd bet," I admitted, rather
suspiciously. In fact, this was an understatement. Gambling
is my weakness. I can rarely turn down a flutter.
"Would you accept a bet from me?" She placed her water on
the floor between her feet. I was aware that she was deftly
changing the subject. This had nothing to do with her
turning up in my garden, or whatever it was we had been
discussing. This was something else, a new agenda.
I shook my head. "I don't know. What sort of bet?"
"Very simple," she said. "A toss of a coin, winner takes
all. You see: I need somewhere to stay. I've come a long way
and I don't have too much money." She saw my concern. "No,"
she said, raising her hand abruptly. "I'm not after your
money. It's of no use to me. I just need somewhere to stay
for the night. This couch will do fine, I'm not asking for
anything more. I wish I could pay you, but, well, I can't.
Instead, a toss of a coin. If I win, then you'll let me stay
until morning. I won't get in your way, I promise, or
interfere with whatever you may be doing... If I lose..."
She paused. She wasn't finding this easy. She must be pretty
desperate. What kind of pickle was she in? She picked up her
water from the floor, sipped it, and rather flustered,
continued: "I don't know, what can I give you? What would
you want from me if I lost?"
She fixed me an anxious stare with her bright green eyes,
frightened, fearful, affecting that strange illusion of
childish innocence.
I was still playing a waiting game. I didn't trust her. "I
don't know," I pondered. "What can you offer?"
She thought for a moment, hesitated. "I don't know. Are you,
are you gay?"
"Gay? No, I'm not gay," I spluttered. She'd caught me by
surprise. "Why ever would you think that?"
"Isn't it obvious? You don't have a girlfriend. Haven't had
a girlfriend for a very long time."
I stared at her dumb stricken. Is that what people were
saying? Who? The neighbors perhaps? She sat back on the
couch, watching me carefully, enjoying the confusion she was
creating. I frowned. "How do you know that? What do you know
of me?"
"I only know what I've been told. You haven't had a
girlfriend for seven or eight years, you're miserable,
lonely, and spend most of your spare time bird watching, the
feathered variety, although you have been known to frequent
the odd strip club."
I blushed. "You're an investigator," I alleged, standing up.
"Who told you all this? Are you trying to blackmail me? What
is it that you're after?"
My confusion had a calming effect on her. She was enjoying
herself. It was fun being mysterious. It imbued her with
power.
"You haven't got enough money to make it worth my while,"
she shrugged simply, then smiled, softening. "I'm not here
to hurt you," she said gently. "Just because I've found out
a few things about you doesn't mean I intend to use that
information to harm you."
"What then?"
She wagged her finger tauntingly. She wasn't finished with
me yet. "Later, we were preparing a wager, remember?"
Oh yes, the bet. Despite her protestations about not meaning
me harm, I remained very much on my guard.
"Why do you go to strip clubs?" she asked with feigned
innocence. "Do you like looking at naked women?"
"I would have thought that was obvious," I declared.
She mulled over my answer. "What about the teasing? Do you
like it when a woman teases you?"
I didn't answer.
"What about me? Do you think I've got a good enough body?"
She raised her hand to the top of her dress, fidgeted again
with the top button, pushed the button into the buttonhole.
"Do you think I would make a good stripper?"
I couldn't stop myself from looking at her. She certainly
had the body. I told her so.
"So would you like it if I undressed for you?"
I flushed red. "I couldn't expect that," I stuttered, rather
guiltily. You see, my penis was giving a very different
answer. This bird was sex turned to flesh, and yes, I wanted
to de-feather her, to have her clothes littering my floor
and her, naked, in their midst.
"You must like looking at naked women," she mused. "If you
didn't you wouldn't have gone to those strip clubs."
"No. Yes."
"Or perhaps you don't think I am as pretty as the women who
undressed for you there?"
"You are very pretty," I admitted.
"So would you like it if I undressed and let you look at my
body? Let you look as much as you like?"
I didn't answer, couldn't answer.
"I could dance or move in somewhat, suggestive ways. Is that
the kind of thing that turns you on?"
I couldn't help but stare at her body. I knew that I was
doing so rather lasciviously, but I couldn't help it. She
was turning me on in a way that hadn't happened for years.
She pushed her breasts together, looking down at where the
tops were barely contained by her low cut dress. "Wouldn't
you like to see these? All of them?"
"Yes," I admitted at last. How could I deny it any longer?
"Then this is my bet," she said triumphantly. "If I win, you
let me stay here until tomorrow morning. On the other hand,
if I lose then I will undress for you, in whatever way you
tell me, however you want, and you may look at me, make me
move, make me touch myself, in whatever way you say."
Consider the facts: she was a sexy woman; there was a good
chance I was soon going to have her in my living room
stripped to the buff; I hadn't done anything this exciting
or adventurous for years: yet, I couldn't shake this feeling
that I was being manipulated. I was uneasy. "I don't seem to
have much to lose," I said dubiously.
"Oh, yes," she countered, "You can lose. More than you can
possibly imagine. But I don't expect you to understand that.
Not yet."
Despite my doubts, I couldn't escape my nature: lascivious.
My dick was taking a definite interest in matters, a
majority interest. Mentally, I was already undressing her,
removing her pale red dress, unclipping her bra, pulling
down her panties. I couldn't stop myself. Mentally, I had
already won the bet.
She leant back a little further into the couch, opening her
legs, letting the skirt of her dress ride up her legs,
tempting me. "What do you say?" she purred. "Do we have a
bet?"
"A bet," I agreed.
"So what about a coin? Do you have a coin?" she asked.
I reached into my trouser pocket and pulled out a fifty
pence piece. I held it out for her to take.
"No, you do it," she said, rubbing herself over the top of
her dress. God! What was she doing? What sort of person was
she?
I cleared the phlegm in my throat and prepared to toss the
coin. "Who calls?" I asked, rather matter of fact.
She grinned, rubbing her tits openly over her clothes. "You
do. While the coin is in the air."
I hesitated. She was most definitely embarrassing me. "Are
you sure about this? If you're in trouble...."
"Toss the coin."
I placed it on my finger. "You're sure?"
"Do it."
I flicked the coin into the air. "Heads, I cried, watching
it flip head over tail several feet into the air, and then
fall silently into the carpet.
I looked down at the coin. A reverse. Tails. Damn! I found
it difficult to keep the disappointment from my face. Oh,
well.
"Never mind," she said, sitting up and immediately
refastening the top button of her dress, then straightening
her clothes. "There'll be other opportunities, I'm sure."
I had to fight the urge to take her in my arms and kiss her.
I wanted to so much. I wanted to peel off her dress, then
her under things. I wanted to take her upstairs and stick my
thick tool into her juicy twat. I was confused by her
contradictions, the incompatible messages that she was
sending. Did she fancy me, or was she using me? I had little
real idea.
"I'd better put the lawn mower away," I said. My
disappointment was still obvious.
"Don't fret," she pleaded, rather patronizingly, squeezing
her boobs together and making them bulge for my benefit.
"You may have lost the battle, but there's still a war to
fight."
I remained noncommittal, scowling. "There's some egg and
bacon in the fridge," I volunteered reluctantly. "If you're
staying then you may as well make yourself useful." I
sighed. "I suppose you're hungry?"
"Yes."
I knew it. "Do you think you could manage to rustle up some
lunch while I finish off the lawn."
She said that she would try. So while I went outside to cut
the grass, I left her in the kitchen. It took me about half
an hour to finish the lawn. Then I unplugged the mower,
cleaned it and put it back into the shed.
When I came back inside, I found Nicki still in the kitchen.
It was a hive of inactivity. She had got the eggs out of the
fridge and they were sitting on the top. She had got no
further.
I stared bemusedly at the eggs. "Are you okay?" I asked.
"What's wrong?"
At once, she rushed over to me and threw her arms round my
neck. "I was going to cook you lunch," she wailed, "but I
didn't know how to cook them."
"Eggs?" I queried wondrously. She was hanging from my neck,
sobbing into my dirty, sweaty shoulder. I could feel the
musk in her hair. "You can't cook eggs?" I was completely
taken aback because she was really heartbroken. This wasn't
a pretense; her tears were real. I put my arms round her and
comforted her, holding her tight, feeling her body melt into
mine. "Didn't anyone ever teach you?"
"I'm sorry." she sniffed. "Can you forgive me?"
I smiled and thawed. How could I remain cold and reserved in
the face of such emotion? Am I such a monster? "Of course I
forgive you. There's nothing to forgive. I'm just a little
surprised that's all."
She lifted her head from my shoulder and managed a watery
green smile through her tears. Then she dissolved back into
my arms. "You're sure?"
"Of course I'm sure."
And that was Nicki. She was this wonderful contradiction.
She was an adult, god, was she an adult! She knew exactly
how to tempt me with her sexuality, how to work her eyes or
play with her clothes such that she could send me into
delirium. Yet she was also the smallest of girls. There was
ignorance, wonder, and an implicit trust that were all truly
childlike. Adult suavity and childish naivete were combined
in her in such equal measure that you couldn't ever quite
see where the one ended and the other began.
"Go set the table," I commanded, taking hold of her arms and
disentangling her from my shoulder. "You'll find knives and
forks in that drawer." I pointed. "Don't worry. If you give
me a few minutes to shower and change, I'll cook the eggs."
I was surprised. You know, it's actually fun to be able to
cook for someone else. For so long I had cooked only for
myself! I found some sausages, mushrooms, fried some bread.
Yet while I cooked I was also anxious. There was too much
mystery in the house. Mystery in a woman can be taken to
extremes. Nicki definitely had far too much mystery for my
peace of mind. I kept asking myself: Who is this strange
nymph that has wandered into my life? Why all her secrets?
"Oh look," she cried from the living room. "I love old
photos."
I looked through the doorway into the living room. Amongst
my bird photos she had found a family picture hanging on the
wall. These things become so much part of the decor you
forget they are there. I hadn't looked at that picture for
years. "Not so much of the old," I joked. "That's me you can
see there."
"I thought it must be. And is that your sister?"
"Yes," I nodded, my suspicions returning instantly. "But how
did you know that Jane was my sister?"
I was becoming paranoid. I regretted the question as soon as
it had popped out. She looked up, hurt. "Who else would it
be?" she asked reproachfully, her lip quivering. "You can
tell. She looks just like you."
"Hmm," I said, hiding my apology. I wondered whether it was
Jane that had given Nicki all her insider information. Hmm,
maybe. I left Nicki looking at the picture and went to dish
up dinner.
She was not at all appreciative when I came in with two full
plates of food. "You should be careful," Nicki said dryly,
sitting down at the table. "My grandmother says that it's
not good for you to eat too much fat, too much cholesterol.
It'll catch up with you in later years."
How dare she criticize my cooking? What right had she? When
she couldn't even fry an egg herself? I grinned. "Your
grandmother's not here to eat it. So do you want this food
or not?"
"Absolutely."
"Then stop complaining and fetch the ketchup."
*******
It's amazing that you can spend time in conversation with
someone, and yet not find out anything about him or her at
all. That evening, we spoke together of ornithology, of
local history and we also had a lengthy disagreement over
who should sleep on the couch. Yet nothing too personal.
I discovered that she lived with friends, had problem hair,
adored her cat, and that her mother was Austrian. Yet
nothing too personal.
She told me that men are becoming effeminate due to traces
of detergent found in drinking water, that Humphrey Bogart
was a totally crystalline actor, whatever that means, and
that her father was the most wonderful man she had ever met.
Yet she told me nothing personal. She told me everything and
anything except for the one thing I wanted to know. She
didn't tell me why she was sitting in my parlor drinking my
coffee, eating my biscuits and enduring my presence.
It was nearly ten o'clock when she finally asked if she
could take a shower. I found her a towel, some old pajamas
and left her to the bathroom.
Downstairs, I put away the photo albums, tidied the kitchen
and began to think about bed. Upstairs, the water was
running and I heard the calming verse of a lilting melody.
It's remarkable, I thought, just how many things can change
in the course of a single day.
When she'd finished, she came back down. I knew she would.
We still had to resolve the argument regarding who should
sleep on the couch. She trotted down the stairs, appearing
in the doorway a moment later wearing only the top half of
the pair of blue striped pajamas. She was also barefoot. I
was somewhat astounded by the casualness of her attire.
"Aren't you cold?" I asked.
"Cold? Why should I feel cold? It's the middle of July."
"Okay," I conceded. "Not cold. That was the wrong word. What
I mean is, don't you feel at all nervous dressed like that
in my company?"
I was now certain that she was trying to seduce me. I had
been almost certain before, but now I was sure. You just
don't pick up a man, maneuver your way into his home, and
then appear at bedtime wearing only half a pair of pajamas
unless you want to fuck him, not in the big 2000 millennium
year.
So the sixty-four thousand-dollar question was, why was she
trying to seduce me? I've been around too long to believe
that it was the strength of my personality or my reputation
as a fantastic cocksman. It couldn't even be my money that
she was after. I had some, certainly, but not sufficient to
warrant being hustled in this way.
It was something else.
She blinked. "Why should I feel nervous?"
I spoke firmly, calmly, just as you speak to a small child.
"Nicki," I said. "You're alone in a house with a guy you
don't know. When you dress like that, with everything almost
showing, it does things to a guy, it sends certain signals.
It's risky."
She stared at me through her clear green eyes, brought her
arm across her breast, and began toying with the top button
of the pajamas. God, did she know what that did to me?
"Am I," she murmured. "Am I doing those things to you? Right
now?"
"Yes," I erupted. "Yes, by god. Yes, Nicki you are."
"Oh."
"Do you always carry on like this? It's not fair. How do you
know that I won't take you upstairs and rape you?"
She wasn't fazed at all by the question. "I rather thought,"
she replied hesitantly. "That if you were going to do that,
that you would probably do it down here."
I was incredulous. She was loopy, plain loopy. "And that
doesn't bother you?"
"A little," she admitted slowly. "But only because it's
probably more comfortable upstairs."
"This is stupid." She was pulling my leg, winding me up. She
couldn't be serious, yet she stared through eyes that were
perfectly sincere.
I sensed that she was probably making a fool of me! "You
want me to fuck you, is that it?" I demanded angrily,
annoyed. No reaction.
"This isn't a game, Nicki," I reprimanded. "You don't know
me, don't know what I might do. I might hurt you, injure
you, kill you even."
"No," she challenged me adamantly, her green eyes sparkling.
"You wouldn't do that. I know you wouldn't. You see, my
grandmother told me so much about you. She told me how kind
you were, that you would never turn me away. She told me
that you get lonely, about your birds, and about the strip
clubs too."
"Your grandmother?"
"Right."
I rubbed my ear idly. For the life of me, I couldn't think
who this girl's grandmother might be. Bizarre. It had to be
someone who knew me well... Unless, that is, a nagging voice
kept insisting; unless this entire affair is a scam,
something Nicki has invented; unless, the nagging voice
suggested, I was being taken for a fool.
I kept my guard firmly raised. "Does your grandmother have a
name?"
"Of course she has a name. She has the same name as me.
Rather, I have the same name as her. It must be that way
round. I was named after her, you see. Her name is Nicola."
I shook my head, thoughtful. "I don't know anyone called
Nicola."
"I didn't say that you did," she said lightly. "I said that
she knows you."
This was blowing my mind. It didn't make any sense. If Nicki
was only going to talk in riddles, then I'd had enough of
it. Except...
"So your grandmother doesn't reckon I will do you any harm?"
"Didn't," she corrected softly. "Past tense. My grandmother
passed away. She died. But before she died, she told me that
it's been a long time since you've had a woman and that I
should be prepared for you to be amorous."
"Amorous," I spluttered. The presumption of it! "Did she put
you up to this?"
Nicki grinned cheekily. "'Uncontrollably amorous' were her
exact words. She said if I pushed hard enough, I would push
you over the edge, and that then things would get
interesting."
"And that didn't put you off coming here and staying in my
house?"
"It made me all the more determined. You see, she also said
that you would never hurt me, that you can't hurt a fly. I
know that I haven't told you who she is yet, and so none of
this makes much sense. But she used to be a very different
kind of person until you brought out something unique within
her. You caused her to achieve her potential. She achieved
greatness, real greatness. I wanted to thank you. You see,
it's because of her that I can be here."
I shook my head. "It's all riddles. I don't know your
grandmother. Are you sure you've found the right person? It
is me you're after, Greg Isitt? You see, this makes no
sense, none at all."
She grinned. "Of course it doesn't. But it will. Wait until
tomorrow. Tomorrow it will make perfect sense."
She came up to me and kissed me on the cheek, softly,
sweetly. Once again she had become the little girl. She put
her arms round me and hugged me. This too, she did in the
manner of a child, not that of a grown woman.
She looked up into my face and grinned. "I can feel your
penis sticking into my tummy."
She was right. The touch of her body against mine; her
smell, fresh from the shower, feminine, perfumed; the sight
of her fair legs barely covered by the pajama top; her
breasts, braless, hanging loose inside the pajamas: all
these were intoxicating me, arousing me in a way that I
could not control.
I tried to pull away from her, disgusted with myself. But
she was holding on to me. "Don't feel bad," she entreated.
"Don't you understand? I want to feel your penis against me!
I want it and the terrible thing is that I can't tell you
why. Oh, I really hate these secrets. How I hate them!"
She gripped my arms, pinching them so hard I nearly had to
tell her to stop. "I've just told you how I feel," she
rasped. "You've heard me. So what are you going to do about
it?"
I was totally lost, confused, aroused. Yet through the mist
and the fog, one truth seemed to stand tall: Nicki wanted me
to fuck her.
"Shall we go upstairs?"
"No."
I stamped my foot. "What?"
"No. No I won't go." Her voice was hoarse, breathless. "So
what are you going to do about it?"
"I'll carry you. You are going upstairs with me, Nicki." Her
bright eyes widened, not from fear, something else, her jaw
dropped.
"No."
As I lifted her off the ground, her pajama top fell back to
reveal her panties. She saw me looking, yet she made no
effort to cover herself, she allowed me to look at her. The
tease! She was wearing a black G-string flecked with red
lace. Any doubt I might have had was instantly dispelled.
This was not the garment of a lady's own preference. It was
not the garment of womanly comfort. It was a garment worn
for the particular purpose of enticing and teasing a man.
I carried her upstairs and flung her onto my bed. I was
smoldering with desire and she knew it. "You're right at the
edge," she accused.
"I'm not."
"You are, at the very edge, and if you're not careful... You
do understand what you're doing? You understand that I
haven't said yes to you."
"And do you understand that you're wearing my pajamas," I
countered, hardening my voice. I stared straight at her,
eyes burning. "Give them back, now."
She pouted obstinately. "No."
"Give them to me or I'll spank your butt," I growled. "I'll
smack it so hard that you won't be able to sit down for a
week. Give them to me and let's see what you're really made
of."
She reddened deliciously. I think she understood that I had
just stepped over the edge, that there was no going back,
but it didn't stop her play-acting. She would make a fine
actress. "May I go to the bathroom to change? Please."
"No," I insisted, stamping my foot. "Here and now."
"You are very cruel."
"As your grandmother predicted."
Her hand moved nervously to the top button. I had seen her
do this several times, but now, under compulsion, for the
first time she slid the button completely through the hole.
She kept hold of the pajamas, preventing the panels from
gaping open.
"And the rest," I demanded.
She moaned softly, and slipped the other buttons undone. The
dark blue cotton parted allowing me to witness the divide of
her breasts, the luscious foothills of her majestic
Himalayas.
I reached forward and roughly pulled at the shirt of her
striped pajamas, twisting it open. She didn't move, simply
allowed me to do it, allowed me to stare at her, at her
heavy breasts waiting quivering for my inspection, at her
large dark nipples already hard and prominent. God, I love
large breasts!
I could see her G-string just as clearly. There was nothing
of it, just a small wisp of black nylon that barely covered
her, its edges speckled with crimson red. The slut must
certainly have shaved herself for her mound was almost
totally exposed, only the puffy flesh of her labia was
concealed, its outline contoured through the thin black
nylon.
I reached forward and took hold of the waistband, such as it
was. She gasped, sucking in her breath and regarding me
accusingly, waiting anxiously for what we both knew was
inevitable.
I tugged on the flimsy waistband, dragging it over her hips
and the nylon from her pussy. God, just look at that! What a
sight! Her slit was totally bare, shaved completely. I could
see every detail, her mound, the folds of her lips, the gash
itself. Why, she was as smooth as a newborn baby! My dick
swelled like it was a sausage balloon into which hot air was
being blown.
Quickly, frantically, I began tugging at my own clothes.
"God, where did you learn that?" I choked, unable to look
away from her bare twat, pulling off my shirt.
Rather shyly, she let her legs fall apart. Instantly, her
lips separated revealing the soft pinks of her pussy. "Do
you like me?" she breathed coyly.
What a stupid question! I dropped my trousers and pulled
them off. My cock was barely able to fit inside my
underwear, such had it grown. There was fire in my belly,
and she had put it there. She stared at my groin,
discovering for herself the indisputable answer to her
question.
As she watched, buggy eyed, I pulled down my underpants,
releasing my throbbing erection from its confinement.
"Fuck!" she murmured, sitting up, watching me handle it,
play with it. "She told me it was big, but I didn't
realize."
"Who told you it was big?" I asked, pushing her back from
her sitting position and mounting her. She was still wearing
my blue striped pajama top, but it was no longer concealing
anything so I was content to let it stay.
She wrapped her legs around my back, squeezing my erection
against her open pussy. "Do you want to talk or do you want
to fuck?" she groaned, rubbing her crotch against my cock,
making sure of my answer.
"I want to fuck."
"Then stop messing about and stick your stupid cock into me.
Can't you see that my cunt is aching to have you inside me?"
In fact, she didn't wait; she did it herself. She grabbed my
erection and pushed it into the right position. I lowered
myself, pushing slowly my penis inside, deeper and deeper. I
could feel the lining of her cunt stretching, her muscles
pulling her open to accommodate the girth of my tool.
We kissed, mouths open, tongues touching, clinging,
grappling. Her breasts were pressed against my chest. I
grabbed them, kneading them roughly, feeling her eager
response, the shallow gasp, the desperate sigh. As I
continued tweaking her nipples, fondling them, caressing
them, she began to ride my cock, thrusting herself onto it,
pressing it against the sensitive areas around her clit.
"Who are you?" I wheezed, rocking back and forth, fingering
her teats, rubbing them gently.
"Your guardian angel," she gasped between breaths.
I groaned. I knew I couldn't last much longer. It had been a
long time since I had fucked anyone and my machinery was
super sensitive, over sensitive. I tried to slow, to keep
hold of my load, but it was an impossible task. She had hold
of my hips and was rocking me, setting her own pace. How
could I fight against that?
She must have seen the dread in my eyes, the fear of
disappointing, because she kissed me firmly, fully, arching
her back to get better leverage. "Don't worry," she cried.
"Don't stop. If you want to, just do it. Keep going."
I was sure that she hadn't come yet, but she squeezed
harder, pushed violently, led me resolutely towards the
final precipice. "God!" I cried. "I can't..."
"It's all right," she moaned. "Do it. I want you to come, I
want you to come inside me."
"I can't... I can't... I'm sorry."
"It's okay. Do it. Please. Give me your come."
I gasped, cried out, my tool was trembling, shaking,
erupting. "God!" I groaned, gripping her shoulders, pinching
her hard, submerging my penis inside her steamy swamp.
Inside, my come splattered against her rocky cervix,
spurting time after time and filling her long love tube.
She grabbed hold of my hair, used it to pull my mouth onto
hers. There were tears in her eyes: of happiness, I hoped.
"Thank you," she cried. "Thank you, dear Greg."
Her appreciation left me confused, baffled, because as far
as I could tell, she had not come at all.
*************
Next morning.
I lay in bed, half awake, half asleep, my mind cloudy,
misty, fogged up. Her pretty face rested happily upon my
shoulder, her naked breast was pressed unconcernedly against
my side. She was sleeping, her breathing soft, regular and
relaxed.
Through bright green satin curtains, undrawn, a blue sky
beckoned a new day, the birds sang of their happiness with
the world and two young boys kicked a football with
fantastic dreams of becoming the next Renaldo.
What had become of my dreams? Where were they now? Eight
years ago I had been full of hopes and aspirations and
confidence. I had been the morning bird singing his
exuberant song, alive, youthful, forward looking. But then,
had come that moment of anguish and pain proceeded by years
of slow suffocation. What had I become? What on earth had I
turned into?
Nicki shifted restlessly in her sleep. Unconscious of her
actions, she contentedly rubbed her naked body against mine;
unaware of the effect this was likely to have. Her hand lay
idle upon my chest. I kissed her gently. When she didn't
stir, I grew bolder. I slowly slipped my hand onto her
breast, touching her nipple with the tip of my finger. Still
there was no reaction.
I was curious. I waited a couple of minutes before slowly
tracing the outside of her nipple with my finger. I was now
fully awake; sleep had left me. I wondered how far I could
excite her before she too began to awake. The thought
triggered an instant reaction in my lower regions, and my
flaccid cock began to harden.
I tickled her nipple for some time, gently, furtively.
Although I had the joy of seeing it lengthen and harden, I
was disappointed that there was no further reaction. Still
she slept. I was going to have to attack her pussy if I
wanted to witness any kind of upheaval.
I tickled her firm nether cheeks idly while I worked out how
I could gain access. She was lying against me, one leg drawn
over my thigh, resting upon me. Although I could fondle her
back and ass, and I could cup one of her breasts, I would
have to move her if I wanted to reach any of her secret
places.
This was risky; she might well wake up. How was I going to
shift her from her side onto her back?
My only practical option involved taking a chance. I would
pretend to be moving about in my sleep.
I grunted; yawned, then turned sharply with feigned
irritation, pulling my arm from under her. More fidgeting, a
groan, and my arm fell conveniently and deliberately across
her tummy, my hand coming to rest in the middle of her
shaved pussy mound. Perfect.
I lay still for a few minutes congratulating myself,
allowing her disturbed sleep to calm and deepen. I was
twitching to get my fingers into her pussy, to make it drip
with excitement; to make her come, but I daren't yet. As I
waited expectantly, I could feel my dick moving unbidden
upon my thigh as it hardened and lengthened. How deep was
her sleep? Would it be possible to get my tool inside her
without her wakening? Was that possible?
How far could I go?
Slowly my finger wandered across her bare mound in search of
her outer lips. Finding them, that digit slipped inside,
barely touching her, parting the skin of her inner lips in
search of her clit. God, she was wet. Not just a little wet,
but she was drenched.
What was going on? I was pretty sure that I hadn't done
that. I'd played with her nipple, sure, but Nicki was just
simply way up there in the clouds. I wondered. Was this
bitch right now dreaming erotic thoughts? Was she even at
this moment conjuring up images of her perfect man? An
imagination that knew how to satisfy and who never came too
early? Was she right now copulating with this guy, feeling
the ecstasy of his touch and the magic of her first never-
ending orgasm?
How could I ever compete with such an ideal?
Through the bright green curtains of my room, the sun was
now shining, casting its rays across the room and striking
our naked bodies. It was warm, comforting.
I kept fingering her, gently but steadily. I knew from
unfortunate experience that this girl didn't come quickly.
It would take some time.
Her breathing pattern was changing. It was becoming faster,
less regular. Was she awake? Was she just pretending to
sleep, enjoying her early morning wake-up call? I couldn't
know for certain. I wasn't sure it even mattered. I just
kept working away at her pussy, laboring in the wet.
Now, a thought, I began a second line of attack. Leaning
across, I took a nipple in my mouth, licked it, teased it,
chewed on it gently. God, what breasts! I could live in such
breasts. I kissed them, sucked them, each time gravitating
back to her nipples, using my tongue to vex them.
Her breathing was erratic, she was groaning in her sleep.
Could she really still be asleep? Imagine: if I could
penetrate her and she woke in the middle of an intense
orgasm, what an achievement that would be!
I rolled onto her, careful not to burden her with my weight.
Slowly, I maneuvered my cock into place, slipped it where my
finger had been and gently slid it inside. She groaned. Her
eyelids were fluttering rapidly. Was she dreaming? I
believed that she was. I was sure that reality and dream
were now combining, that my cock, immersed inside her, was
also present somewhere within her dream, a dream that was
assuming its shape from the fucking she was receiving.
How deep was her sleep? I wasn't sure. I couldn't believe
that I had got this far. I was pounding her pussy, juicing
her up, and she was reacting, responding, while, I believed,
even now she still slept.
I whispered into her ear, a third line of attack. "You're so
sexy, Nicki. You turn me on so much. God. I can't believe
how you turn me on."
There was a catch in her breathing, a moan almost. "Can you
feel how hard I am?" I pursued. "It's you who is responsible
for that. Every bit of my stiffness is down to you, to your
gorgeous tits, your hard butt and your bare pussy. Can you
feel my cock, how long and thick and hard? That's how much
you turn me on."
At last, her eyes opened, green, bright, widening in
surprise as she saw me upon her and what I was doing. Her
arms reached up instantly and clasped my back, her
fingernails digging into my flesh. "Don't stop," she cried.
I had no intention of stopping. Rather, I increased the pace
of my strokes, beating her sopping twat with my hungry
balls.
Her face was flushed, alive, hot. I could smell her
perspiration perfumed with my body lotion. Our bodies slid
against each other, up, down, back, forth, sensitizing,
sensitive.
She was almost there. I knew it. I could see on her face
that her body was reaching its peak; she was coming, she was
orgasmic. Still I kept going. "God, thank you," she
whimpered, her breathing raucous, her green eyes wild.
I didn't let up, just kept pounding her, sending her into
shivers of euphoria.
"Yes," she cried. "Yes, oh yes, oh yes." Still I didn't
stop, couldn't stop, just kept kissing her, riding her,
fucking her.
She came twice. Only after the second time did I begin to
think about coming myself, only then would I allow myself to
shoot my wad.
And I came, and came and came yet more.
Afterwards, when we'd finished we lay against each other,
spent, happy, smelly. My hand caressed her breast, with
fondness, affection: these things rather than with any
implied sexual intent. Her fingers fondled my hair.
I stared through the window. The young boys were no longer
playing football. It was quiet outside. "Can I stay for
breakfast?" she asked.
The question brought a pang to my stomach because I didn't
want her to leave. Loneliness is a terrible affliction.
"Stay as long as you like," I said offhandedly.
"I'll go after breakfast," she said. I was disappointed. It
was a huge anti climax. But she spoke quite definitely: no
disappointment or regret or argument.
Don't mistake me. I wasn't in love with her or anything daft
like that. We'd only just met; we hardly knew each other. It
was just that holding her warm naked body, feeling her
affection, her need; these things exposed within me feelings
of my own, ones that I'd managed to hide for many years.
Of course, she must go. I understood that. She must have
family, friends. It was for myself that I felt sorry.
There was to be no breakfast, however. I realized suddenly
that we'd emptied the fridge the previous evening. I had
nothing to cook. If I'd been expecting her visit, if she'd
been invited, then I'd have stocked up. As it was, she'd
caught me by surprise.
"It's not a problem," I said cheerily. "It won't take me a
moment to get some things. It'll only take five minutes to
pop down to the High Street."
She decided to come with me. We parked the car and were on
our way to the small supermarket when she saw a little cafe
tucked between a shoe shop and a bakery. Instantly she
grabbed my arm and pulled me to her.
"Will you buy me a cream tea?" she asked eagerly, urgently.
"Nobody has ever done that before."
"For breakfast?" I queried. "It's only ten thirty. How about
later?"
But she was a six year old asking her father for sweets. She
was persistent, desperate, and in the face of such pressure,
how could I resist?
She pulled me across the road, holding my hand. She was
giggling, flimsy, superficial. She led me into the small
cafe and dragged me to a table by the window. The tables
were packed closely together. Cheap pictures hung awry on
the walls. The carpet was threadbare. It was cramped,
anachronistic.
A young waitress, buxom, with brown hair and green eyes came
over to serve us. Nicki stared up at her with a wide faraway
expression.
I was concerned.
"Are you all right?" I asked her; worried that she might be
feeling faint again. She nodded absently.
I ordered two cream teas and sat back on my chair watching
Nicki. I couldn't get over what a sexy woman she was, and
how much she had wanted, actually wanted me to fuck her. It
has a weird positive effect on the ego when you know that
another person desires you.
After a short wait, the waitress returned with our order. It
was uncanny how much she resembled Nicki: they might be
sisters. Or was it me? Now that I knew her, had fucked her,
was I now doomed to see Nicki's likeness in every woman I
met? The waitress placed our things on the table. I smiled,
thanked her, and she left us alone.
There was energy, an excitement about Nicki that I didn't
understand. She was far more thrilled than a pot of tea and
a scone could possibly warrant, even if it does happen to be
the first time you've encountered them in combination. I
fussed, but eventually I dismissed her agitation as being
the child in her, the part that hadn't grown up.
She picked up her scone and took a bite. "Why don't you have
a girlfriend?" she asked indelicately. There was a fleck of
cream on her lower lip.
"Because I'm an awkward bastard to get on with," I
confessed, pointing tactfully to the cream.
She wiped it with her serviette. "So it has nothing to do
with Stephen?"
I paled. Here it was again. How come she knew so much of my
past? It made me doubt her, everything she'd told me. There
was no grandmother, I decided. There couldn't be. I would
have remembered someone who knew so much.
I was rather short when I spoke. "How do you know about
Stephen?" I snarled. "Come on, tell me the truth, Nicki."
She shrugged. "It isn't such a secret. It was in the papers.
I read the accounts."
Affection was soured and replaced with suspicion. My brow
creased. "So who are you? An investigator? What are you
after? Stephen died a long time ago."
"January 22, 1992," she agreed lightly. "No. I'm not an
investigator. I'm just curious, that's all."
Stephen was my brother. On the evening of January 22, 1992,
we had been driving home from a birthday party. It was
winter. There had been black ice on the road; the car had
skidded into a ditch. I had walked away without a scratch;
Stephen had died outright. I had been driving.
"There are some experiences that never leave you," I said
carefully. "They make you question. They change you: not
always for the better."
These were sad thoughts and they made me melancholy, they
always do, and nothing Nicki subsequently said or did had
any effect on my spirits. Suspicion and regret reigned. I
paid the bill and we left.
We hadn't gone far when Nicki remembered something. "I
forgot," she said suddenly, rushing back inside. "I won't be
a minute."
When she returned I demanded of her what she had forgotten.
It had sounded like an excuse, a ruse, and so, in the mood I
was in, that meant she must be lying. She told me that she
was returning something she had borrowed. I was mystified,
dubious. I didn't believe her.
We never did have breakfast. I guess the cream tea soured
the appetite. Something did, anyway. I thanked her, kissed
her, and watched her walk out of my life.
**********
That evening, there was a knock at my door. When I answered
it, I was amazed to find the waitress from the cafe standing
there.
She was radiant, alive. She looked so much like Nicki, a few
years older, perhaps, but peas from the same pod. It
couldn't be coincidence.
"Yes?"
"You've got some explaining to do," she demanded. She was
agitated, angry, worried. I didn't understand what I could
have done. Had the bill I had used to pay for the cream teas
been counterfeit? A bizarre thought, that, but I could find
no better. I stared at her dumbly, at a loss.
She thrust a picture into my hand. I gazed at it for a long
time without understanding.
"What's the meaning of that?" she asked, defying me to find
an explanation.
Explanations would not be easy. You see, the picture was of
me; but the waitress was in the photograph too. I had my arm
round her waist and we were both smiling. But there was
more, something was wrong with the picture, puzzling.
The photo was of me, and yet it wasn't. It was of her, and
yet not quite.
I was much fuller in the face than I have ever been, past or
present. My hair was receding, and it was flecked with gray.
I don't yet suffer from either of those misfortunes. One the
other hand, while she was certainly gorgeous, she wasn't
quite the person standing before me now, fingering the top
button of her dress. She was heavier, fuller in the bust,
savvier about the eyes.
Sitting on the floor were two children, a boy and a girl.
They were about eight to ten years of age respectively and
were smiling at the camera. Behind, there was a banner,
drawn by a child and hung on my living room wall with blue
string. It read "Happy Anniversary Mum and Dad, 10 years."
I looked up, perplexed. "Where did you get this?" I asked.
"Your girlfriend left it in the cafe. What's going on? She's
a wide one, that one. Did you know, after you'd gone, she
kissed me? What's it about?"
I looked back at the mysterious picture.
"Turn it over. Look at the back," the waitress ordered.
Obediently, I flipped the photo over. On the reverse
somebody had written a few words in orange crayon, "Daddy,
aged 8 yrs, April 2010."
"I think you'd better come in," I said to the young
waitress, still staring at the words. "My name's Greg by the
way. Greg Isitt. Can I ask yours?"
"Nicola," she said, stepping into my parlor. "Nicola Parker.
Now what's this about?"
A Posteriori
by Joanna (joanna_de_brito@hotmail.com)
July 2000
All comments welcome!
--
If you enjoyed this work, take a moment to email the author. Your comments
are their only payment. Pursuant to the Berne Convention, this work is
copyright with all rights reserved by its author unless explicitly indicated.
+----------------' Story submission `-+-' Moderator contact `--------------+
| | |
| ASSM Archive site +-----------------+--------------------+ Newsgroup FAQ |
| --- |
+--------------------------------------------------------------------------+
| This newsgroup is moderated by ASSTR, an entity supported by donations. |
| If you enjoy this newsgroup, please consider making a donation to help |
| Alt.Sex.Stories Text Repository keep providing this free service for you.|
| Donations: |
\_________________________________________________________________________/